(Re)Dedication

I am starting over. Today is November 23rd and I am so sick of not being on top of things. Last week I was awesome, and I remember being so excited about my awesomeness. But I have been terribly inconsistent. I totally need to rededicate myself to this blog. I have been really busy at work and haven't been to the gym in a week or so and it has been so cold out that I haven't been riding my bike. I don't know if you live here or not but Seattle just got hit with this wacky bought of cold weather and we basically had a blizzard last night, seriously. It's 15 degrees outside and that is crazy, especially for this early in the season. I need to get back on track and today is the day I quit the bullshit and just do it. It's late at night and I just got home from work. I had a conversation with a guy who works in the kitchen at Il Fornaio and I told him all about my blog.  What I did and the book that came about from it and how I cooked and worked my way to phyiscal and all-around health. I even showed him the before and after pictures, the same pictures that are on my book.

And then it happened, there in a split second I got the push I needed to rededicate myself. It's why I am here frantically typing and bearing my soul once again here on this blog. Ernesto, the cook, looked at my pictures and was astounded by how awesome the pictures were and there in a moment of complete honesty and a true moment of innocence, he said, as he looked at me, "So what happened?"

He quickly tried to correct himself, rewind his words to seem less blunt. But I knew what he meant. The ten pounds that I have gained back are obvious and my "I can conquer the world" attitude is a bit faded since last May. It has been hard, but I haven't been trying. I need to go back to what worked for me. The blog, the format, the honesty, the accountability that helped me the first time, as I (re)habbed, (re)shaped, (re)built my life.

So......

For Breakfast: I didn't eat anything until I got into work, simply because I woke up too late to make myself something at home and we are low on groceries. When I got to work "family food" was ready: Chicken soup with vegetables and rice in a tomato chicken broth, I also had some avocado, and a slice of ciabatta. These are the kinds of meals I have been eating and not thinking about, exactly how I gained weight the first time around.

For Lunch: Cassi and I went up to NORDSTROM'S and ate at the cafe. I had the Salmon Nicoise Salad. It has mixed greens, herb roasted salmon, green beans, potatoes, egg, capers, olives, and onion in a balsamic vinaigrette.

For Dinner: I was on a double so family food came around the second time. I had a portion of capellini pasta with marinara and tomatoes and basil and a small caesar salad. The me a year ago never would have made these foul decisions. And the me for the last couple months has made these decisions and not put them on the blog. Not okay.

May I remind you, but mostly myself:

I HAVE CREATED THIS BLOG TO HOLD MYSELF ACCOUNTABLE. IT IS TIME FOR ME TO GET BACK IN SHAPE, AND FEEL GOOD ABOUT MY BODY AGAIN. MY OBJECTIVE IS TO COOK MYSELF HEALTHY MEALS AND NOT SACRIFICE FLAVOR OR CREATIVITY. BY COOKING MY OWN MEALS EVERYDAY, I CAN CONTROL EXACTLY WHAT GOES INTO MY BODY.